This week (technically last week) ended up being a complete turnaround compared to the last few, leaving me with a lot to be Thankful for. For some reason, though, I felt almost completely unmotivated to participate in the blog hop this weekend. My fatigue picked up again, and it reminded me I have to call back the clinic for a follow-up appointment. Definitely not looking forward to attempting another sleep study, but perhaps I can get my hands on one of those devices you can bring home to gather data on.
As I fought through the re-surging, constant drowsiness there was a wealth of positive impacts on my life. Through brief (yet also constant) bouts of insecurities spanning various facets of my life, I feel I made some decisions that did well to counter those darker wisps of imagined unworthiness. It’s sometimes hard for me to overcome those doubts, but in time I’ve found with patience and practice I can eventually break through the fog.
- To begin, I wanted to give thanks to something I was very thankful for last week and forgot to mention, which was comments left on my After Armageddon pieces by Katy. I may refer to her as the Owl Lady (and hopefully that isn’t offensive), because I always saw someone’s TToT listing featuring an owl picture, but hadn’t yet visited their blog. They beat me to the punch and came by via TToT and then took the time to read my fiction pieces. I’m always appreciative of any and all [honest] feedback, even negative as long as it’s constructive.
- The inspiration that feedback can produce. Most of my upcoming pieces for After Armageddon hasn’t followed along the actual sequential order of the last entry, but I’ve had that next part [that does] in mind for weeks now. Still uncertain how to flesh it out, but I feel encouraged to write what I have down and go from there. It’s been stated many times that the fiction blog is in draft form, and so far only one small section of one entry has been edited and I haven’t yet shared it. So even if being a little rough around the edges, perhaps having it visually in front of me will help with fine-tuning.
- This Monday was a Grandma Day Extravaganza. I not only saw my grandmother I see each week, but earlier that evening I got to visit with my grandma from Arizona. I may not talk a whole lot about her, but that is likely because our interactions are fairly limited. Since I have no smartphone yet it can be difficult to arrange ways to talk, but she is a little more computer savvy and has Facebook which helps. She had flown in and happened to be visiting my brother on Labor Day, which is when I just so happened to decide to pay an unannounced visit as well. I wasn’t planning on seeing her until the weekend, so it was a fun surprise. I don’t want to forget seeing my grandpa with her was awesome too!
- Visiting with my nieces. This was the initial reason for going over to my brother’s on Labor Day. I used to go over every Monday after spending time with my grandma, but since Under the Dome began I’ve decided against driving over there so late and chance the drive back to my place at 2am or later. I get pretty tired when driving and it’s naturally worse at night. They are such cuties and I had missed seeing them. They have had to deal with some major lifestyle changes, but they seem to be taking everything in good stride. Everyone involved has really and it’s impressive, given the circumstances.
- One of the biggest changes in my life of a positive nature, which I’m very thankful for, is getting to the point of asking someone out officially. We (Kate and I) have been dating for a few months, but due to where I was in life I wanted to make sure it remained on a more casual level. My last relationship was tumultuous (though, not anywhere near entirely bad by far) and I wanted to make sure I took my time and not rush into anything. There were many barriers that were placed up from the get go, and some placed up during mid-dating, but eventually most were worked through.I’m generally not the most vocal emotionally, but I like to think I show my feelings through the things that I do; actions over words. Once I was able to work myself into asking we take our relationship to the “next level” (I’ll try to explain more of this on a more specific entry…) everything seemed to fall into place. Since that time, things have been going great. She was with during the Grandma Day Extravaganza — meeting my other grandma and grandpa a bit ahead of schedule — met my brother and nieces, played Disney Memory, and didn’t seem nervous in the least. Unlike myself when meeting hers… I’m glad we are taking this step together and am really excited to see what’s in store with our future together!
- This weekend was Kate’s birthday, so it was incredibly busy! Friday was the night she celebrated with her family, and I was invited along. I was super nervous and wasn’t completely sure what to expect. I don’t exactly talk a lot and sometimes that can leave a bad first-impression. That and my humor. When I do talk and joke it’s of a more blunt, vulgar nature. Thankfully I know how to regulate and dole out in moderation when appropriate. Especially when elderly and youngins are around. Her nieces and nephews were a riot and definitely the highlight of the evening!
I believe I met her entire immediate family, and once I felt a little more comfortable I was able to open up some. I am insecure about my work/income, lack of college education, etc etc. Questions dealing in those matters almost always cause me to hesitate when answering. Not that it’s important to anyone outside of who I’m involved with. I still worry. We had a delicious dinner of Chinese take-out, Dairy Queen ice cream cake, and homemade pie. I think she [we] got an overabundance of sweets, because I also had a cake and card waiting for her at Midnight when it officially became her birthday.
- Saturday, not only being Kate’s birthday, was the 25th anniversary party for my grandparents from Arizona (and why they were in town this past week). I sometimes wonder how it’s possible for a couple to stay together for so long (don’t tell my girlfriend…), and if I will ever hit that milestone being so behind on the whole “building a family” stage of life. Granted, my grandparents were a bit older than I when meeting and they still got there. Kudos to them! It was amazing to see them and celebrate their love along with family I rarely see. It was now my girlfriend’s turn to meet the immediate family, but she handled it way better than I had. Unfortunately, we weren’t able to stick around for the bonfire.
- This was because later that evening was Kate’s birthday party with her friends. This, again, made me a nervous wreck. Worrying about what they would think of me, if we would get along, if I would even be able to strike up a conversation. It ended up being a great time! Playing games like Cards Against Humanity and Jenga helps lighten the mood, at least when the more innocent CAH players — playing for sake of the group — aren’t crying in horror over some of the despicable combinations of answers people come up with. I love that game. So with good food, fun games, and threats of being skinned alive, I think the night was a success!
- I’m thankful for our own date night to celebrate on Sunday (Though this also occurred Thursday/Friday at the Midnight mark — gifts and cake, not sex you pervs!*). We have had terrible luck attempting to eat at Flameburger again, to try their breakfast, always showing up at the random times they apparently closed. We are pretty pro at it, considering it’s a 24/7 establishment. Embers, for the second time in a row, it was. Not too bad, and I was excited to think I’d be trying my first slutty egg, which was just described to me Saturday night with my girlfriend’s friends. The burger was delicious, and I’d recommend it, but for mess sake I may wait awhile before ordering another. The night ended with a movie (This is the End, which exceeded my expectations of fucked up vulgarity…) and more cake, wrapping up a great weekend.
I had [half] this list ready on Sunday evening, and had planned to post it and link up. I would then just edit and finish it up, but just as I was going to post it the clock turned Midnight. It was officially Monday. So I figured I had some time before the linky list closed (usually 3am my time — or so I thought) and opted to tackle some Candy Crush. As 2am closed in, Kate told me I was going to miss the timeframe to link up. I shrugged it off knowing (or thinking I knew…) I had another hour+ to get it in on “time”.
Then I recalled a night when it closed hours earlier than anticipated, so I had her check and verify for me. Yeah, no… I had like 5 minutes to copy/paste from Google Docs and to edit/tweak etc etc. Then panic mode set in and I tried really hard to get it up, where I could — like before — then finish/tweak it as needed. I got it posted, but then forgot I had to link up. Remembering, I pulled up Lizzi’s blog to find the linky list, and as my slow ass computer (fitting for Slowplay) was attempting to load all of the posts as I scrolled, I missed the mark. I swore I had an additional hour :-(
Soooooo... this is probably the latest anyone has ever posted their TToT compared to the set periods of time to do so. I can’t link up, and I haven’t even got through all of last week’s posts, so perhaps there is a smidge of Karma in the mix.
Hope those of you who happen across this had a great, fun-filled weekend! I promise next weekend I’ll be more up to speed!
*Okay, that maybe happened too...
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